I understand, what is important is how I respond to the situation around me. Not running away. Even if the reason is to make my dreams come true, I have to change something that has been bad for me. changing life priorities is not an easy thing for me. letting go of the things that have made me enthusiastic about living my days... it seems dramatic but it's even sadder if I keep delaying doing everything for myself. Therefore, starting today I will do whatever I like, what I want, what I can.
First of all, changing the mindset. Choose to be happy, smile more and not feeling bad about myself is the first things to do. I believe when i have source from myself. It is enough to live the rest of my days. Wherever i go, whenever it is, i can do it and i am open to any opportunities. What i've learned in 30 years of my age is not that really difficult, Alhamdulillah. Mentally, i still have a doubt, of course everyone has it but it's the time to go.