Hi Ty!

Hi Ty, iam typing to you, myself, i might read this again tomorrow or 3 months later or 1 year later. I am tired now, been using my headset for 3 hours ago to block the room owner's voice. They are so noisy in the morning especially at the weekend. I want to write this because why not?! No one knows where i live right now. Every time i feel like something ruins my privacy, i have to make a decision. Wait, i have to use my headset again, they're so annoying. Listening to Linkin Park should be best for now. 

I am questioning myself as a renter "is my privacy allowed to be annoyed?" I mean in all contexts. So, i need to filter more for my live place. Is it always involving money? Yes, but i don't know how much i can gain in short time. If i have to move, it should be at the same price or better than this. Too many options here but for the best are always full booked or rented already. The ideal one is to get a 1-bedroom apartment (haha). 

I am busy with Planner5D nowadays. Trying to visualize my ideal house picture. I am going to update soon as i finish the design. I also trying to walk the talk. I don't have small target, only the big things left, but even the big one has to be started from the small one. Sleeping habits, workout routine, healthy eat, and so on. I realize that why is adult's life is so tricky and tiring. But actually, i can make it simpler. We can always choose what to do, to do what i love, to do what i can. And remember to work hard, play hard. Seems it has to be 50:50. Balance. 

Some says it's forbidden to talk about your plans. Well, i have nothing to lose. So, it's better to talk about the achievements? 

1. I moved alone (not my first time) but this one is the most far from home
2. I get to know my real self, how i react to any situations including to control all of my emotional conditions
3. Think simpler and efficient 
4. Finally understand that i love to live alone, all in my control

I am wondering if i have a starting point like this, let's say from zero.. what should i do to make it better? Better as i can live to the fullest. Try this and that, visit here and there. Time and money freedom. I know it and only me who knows how to achieve that. And finally, here's my talk again. I just want to re-read this one day if i finally cross-over my big list. See you on top!

DND - My Latest Single

'DND' is out now. Terus terang, lagu ini kutulis sebagai refleksi diri dalam hubungan yang sudah di ujung tanduk. Emosi campur aduk, pergi dari rumah, diusir secara tidak langsung. Lagu ini juga cermin diri yang mengalami emosi tidak stabil. Bisa jadi terinspirasi dari pernikahan muda yang tidak bisa dipertahankan. Bisa, tapi ego.  

Pesan dari lagu ini sebenarnya adalah introspeksi diri dari semua keributan yang terjadi di dalam sebuah hubungan. "I need to fix things up for a while now". 

Perdebatan tak berujung itu bisa dihentikan dengan 1 prinsip hidup "life is too short to just argue". Hidup sementara, sedih sementara, senang sementara, kenapa kamu buat semua nya jadi menyedihkan? Semuanya pasti baik-baik saja kalau kita membuka mata, diam, dan menerima. Bagaimanapun DND adalah tentang menarik diri dari keributan, menyendiri, mengalihkan pikiran, nggak baca notif di handphone. DND adalah hak kita semua. Dan semoga di setiap kesendirian yang kita pilih, nggak akan pernah tumbuh benci tapi penerimaan. That's life.

Satu lagi anakku, 'DND'. A journey to be a better self.