Anxiety of Drinking Coffee, Soda, etc

i have anxiety. i m worry that much about my body, about what i drink. a few months ago i decided to stop drink coffee often. i limit it to only twice a month. i decide it myself.

i used to always said that coffee helps me writing the songs, coffee helps me stop my headache, and etc. i always said that coffee helps me a lot but i also worrying my body and my head after i have a cup of coffee. 

now, i'm working far from home. the office only serve us two brands of coffee and tea. the office is quite far from the city too.. so it's like we don't have much option to drink. i decided to quit soda and sweet drink since 2013. so, for me it's not a big problem when i dont have much option to drink. but, depends on the situation of my working place.. when everybody like drinking coffee every single day, it's like a right way to live, to survive and even it's like a must. i don't want to be like that. i mean.. to decide or doing the bad thing. you know, coffee isn't bad but if you consume it too much.. that's another case.

Doubt X Believe

The Ivy's songs playing. 

So dreamy. 

Like me. 

So simple, so full. 

The reverb and chorus sounds great. 

I think i've pass my hard days. I plan to sleep early tonight, but i just wanna check my laptop out. I don't even care about my English skill, i enjoy it. Passion. That's what i'm doing right now. Just like the Blogger's quote "Publish your passion, your way". 

Lately i've been so low. I was thinking about quit all of this things. I was kinda tired. I wanna sell all my music stuff and have a simple life. An ordinary one. But i was so WRONG.

Yea The Ivy's still playing..

Sunday's evening, i check Youtube. And searched some motivational videos because i was so low. And then i found Jack Ma, a founder of Alibaba. I watch some short videos of him speaking and telling about his experiences. He said a simple line 

"Tomorrow is new".

"Don't be the best. Be the first".

"Be the first to take the challenge".

I totally like him. I know i mention it randomly here, i just don't know how to write my mind down here. 

All i know is now i'm totally brave. I'll never look back, just to regret my mistakes. Mistakes makes us success. I will rock the stage with my own way. I will keep playing my guitar, make some covers on the Internet and get popular when the time is right. I will just keep trying and trying. Exercise, more practices. Sing at the cafes and public spots. 

I know, i am way too simple but i know, it's me. This is my passion. I will keep writing, makes music, and i really want to travel the world. 

#decide

"after all this time,
i'm tryna bring myself back
make it better version of me
and i believe that someday you're gonna like me
more than you do now"

location : Balikpapan Trade Center

taken with : Sony HX90V