hai

jadi, aku lagi coba self-promotion nih

karena (mudah-mudahan) sebentar lagi bakal ada yang baru 

rencananya akan di rilis secara fisik dan digital juga 

sama sekali nggak mau mengabaikan ego sendiri 

kali ini pure, yang akan didengar orang 

yang akan dibaca orang lain 

yang akan dinilai oleh orang lain

it's my real self

Heidi - As Long As Lyric

Let me read and let me be

Let me grow into a tree

I'm so sick of being seiged

They bury me I can't grow my leaves

They said go get a job

Or lose some weight

Or maybe you just need to wait

But maybe that's not for me

La da da da da yeah

Maybe that's not for me

La da da da da yeah

Maybe that's not for me

Let me pack my bags and go

Get money from show to show
Drill and blasting on the road
Well i'll be on my way home

They said you're just the girl with the guitar

Poor kid you ain't goin' far

But just let me be me

La da da da da yeah

Just let me be me

La da da da da yeah

Just let me be me

La da da da da yeah

But just let me be me

La da da da da yeah 

Just let me be me

La da da da da yeah 

Just let me be me

La da da da da yeah

I don't know what I'll be
One day I'll build a house next to the sea
Maybe a mother of three
Maybe dogs on my mid-fourty

As long as i'll be me

La da da da da yeah

As long as i'll be me

Lee Hi ft B.I - No One Easy CHORD

[Intro]
Bm Em A F#m

[Verse]
     Bm
Nugu eopsso
                Em
Nareul butjabajul nimeun eopsso?
      A            F#m
Nuneul sshitgo chajabwado boijiga anneunde
    Bm
Eodi isso
                  Em
Nareul deryeoga jul nimeun eopsso?
       A
Nan deo isang mot chamgesso
      F#m
Naege dagawa juo

[Pre-Chorus]
 Bm                Em

Ttokgateun geori gateun dalbit sogeseo
A                F#m
Ttokgateun jari gateun jame deulgetji
    Bm
Ijeneun nugungal deohago shipeo
  Em
Jiteun oeroum geodugo shipeo
      A              F#m
I don't wanna be alone anymore

[Chorus 1]
         Bm                   Em
Ttokttok nugu eopsso (Ttokttok nan yeogi isso, ttokttok geogi)
      A                F#m
Nugu eopsso (Ttokttok neon eodi isso)
                Bm
Daedaphaejuo, nugu eopsso

[Chorus 2]
Bm
  I don't know I don't know I don't know
    Em
Daeche nimeun eodie
A
  I don't know I don't know I don't know
        F#m
I don't care about shit

[Verse]
          Bm
Geogi nugu eopsso
                           Em
I jen eomneun geuriumeul eojjeonyaneun mario
                      A
Honjain bameun yeojeoni jamdeulgiga ashwiweo
                       F#m
Meomun jeokdo eomneun naye nimeun daeche
                             Bm
Eodil geurido geuphage gashio  Nugu eopsso, daedani byeol bol il
         Em
eomneun  Naye haruharueneun piryohae byeoril
        A
Eojireoun doshiwa oeroun i hyeonshil 
            F#m
sogeseo Nareul derigo domangga juo meolli
      Bm
Nugu eopsso

[Pre-Chorus]
 Bm                Em

Ttokgateun geori gateun dalbit sogeseo
A                F#m
Ttokgateun jari gateun jame deulgetji
    Bm
Ijeneun nugungal deohago shipeo
  Em
Jiteun oeroum geodugo shipeo
      A              F#m
I don't wanna be alone anymore

[Chorus 1]
         Bm                   Em
Ttokttok nugu eopsso (Ttokttok nan yeogi isso, ttokttok geogi)
      A                F#m
Nugu eopsso (Ttokttok neon eodi isso)
                Bm
Daedaphaejuo, nugu eopsso

[Chorus 2]
Bm
  I don't know I don't know I don't know
    Em
Daeche nimeun eodie

A
  I don't know I don't know I don't know
        F#m
I don't care about shit

[Bridge]
Em F#m
Yunani gin bame heoril beeonaego
Bm A
Tto ibul arae goi mosyeonoeuri
Em F#m 
Gidarigo gidarideon
Bm A
Geudaega oshin nal bame
Em F#m 
Kkeonae deuriorida
           Bm
Ttokttok nugu eopsso

[Chorus 2]
Bm
  I don't know I don't know I don't know
    Em
Daeche nimeun eodie (Ttokttok, yeobwara)
A
  I don't know I don't know I don't know
        F#m
I don't care about shit (Ttokttok, yeobwara)

[Outro]
      Bm
Nugu eopsso (Yeoboseyo geogi nugu)
Em
  (Yeoboseyo geogi nugu)
A
  I don't know
F#m
I don't know I don't know
    Bm
Yeoboseyo geogi nugu, ttokttok nugu
      Em
Yeoboseyo geogi nugu, ttokttok nugu eopsso
  A
Ttokttok nugu eopsso
(Nal michige hal)
     F#m
Sum shwige hal (Deultteuge hal)
N.C.
Ttokttok nugu eopsso

James Bay - BAD Chord

[Intro]
C    Em

[Verse 1]
C                                        Em
I know it hurts that we don't touch anymore
C                                              Em
It's even worse because we built this from the floor
C                                                       Em
It's just as hard for me to know I might see you around
C                                            Em
Just as hard for me to worry about reaching out


[Pre-Chorus]
    F                          C/E                     Dm    C/E
The more I think about you, the more I keep the ghost alive
          F                           C/E                       Dm    G
Yeah, the more I think about you, the more I keep the ghost alive


[Chorus]
  C        C/B           Am   G
I want you bad, but it's done
    F        C/E           Dm        G
I'm bleeding out, 'cause we can't go on
  C        C/B           Am   G
I want you bad, 'til I shake
       F       C/E            Dm      G
I want what we had, but what's broken don't unbreak


[Verse 2]
C                                                Em
Just when I'm ready to get over you, you call me up
C                                                   Em
And then I crumble when you say you're getting over us


[Pre-Chorus]
        F                       C/E                          Dm    C/E
But the more I think about you, the more I keep the ghost alive
          F                             C/E                    Dm     G
Yeah, the more that I'm without you, the less I know if I was right


[Chorus]
  C        C/B           Am   G
I want you bad, but it's done
    F        C/E           Dm        G
I'm bleeding out, 'cause we can't go on
  C        C/B           Am   G
I want you bad, 'til I shake
       F       C/E            Dm      G
I want what we had, but what's broken don't unbreak


[Bridge]
C          C/B   Am   C/B   C  Dm7        C
And I won't tell you          what I want to
Gsus         G
What I want to
C          C/B   Am   C/B   C  Dm       C
I'm falling through,           I can't hide it
Gsus           G
But I'll learn to


[Chorus]
  C        C/B           Am   G
I want you bad, but it's done
    F        C/E           Dm        G
I'm bleeding out, 'cause we can't go on
  C        C/B           Am   G
I want you bad, 'til I shake
       F       C/E             Dm       G
I want what we had, but what's broken don't unbreak


[Outro]
  C        C/B           Am   G
I want you bad, but it's done
    F       C/E          Dm      G
I want you bad, but we can't go on

1994 EP

Good evening.. 5 minutes to midnight, i want to share about my extended play. 1994 is my birth year, also my EP title. 1994 EP is my big step in my life. Cause it is my entire life dreams. Working with Besok Libur Records and Aan Connolly, they supported me very well, until now. I can say, it's already 50% and planned to be released on July this year. Can't wait for it! 

I will release a Single in the close time, i will share here and there. 

Well, i just need to find my old self back, i miss the moment like this, midnight, writing, music playing. Forget about tomorrow, office routine sucks. Actually you know how to control yourself and not to stress too much. 

My influence for this EP are some indie bands and indie soloists. Such as Janitra Satriani, Bedchamber, Fazerdaze, and Sing Street! I love them. And also Paramore (After Laughter album).

I'm getting sleepy, i'll fix this post soon, come up with new song from me ;)

Have a nice dream.

Doubt X Believe

The Ivy's songs playing. 

So dreamy. 

Like me. 

So simple, so full. 

The reverb and chorus sounds great. 

I think i've pass my hard days. I plan to sleep early tonight, but i just wanna check my laptop out. I don't even care about my English skill, i enjoy it. Passion. That's what i'm doing right now. Just like the Blogger's quote "Publish your passion, your way". 

Lately i've been so low. I was thinking about quit all of this things. I was kinda tired. I wanna sell all my music stuff and have a simple life. An ordinary one. But i was so WRONG.

Yea The Ivy's still playing..

Sunday's evening, i check Youtube. And searched some motivational videos because i was so low. And then i found Jack Ma, a founder of Alibaba. I watch some short videos of him speaking and telling about his experiences. He said a simple line 

"Tomorrow is new".

"Don't be the best. Be the first".

"Be the first to take the challenge".

I totally like him. I know i mention it randomly here, i just don't know how to write my mind down here. 

All i know is now i'm totally brave. I'll never look back, just to regret my mistakes. Mistakes makes us success. I will rock the stage with my own way. I will keep playing my guitar, make some covers on the Internet and get popular when the time is right. I will just keep trying and trying. Exercise, more practices. Sing at the cafes and public spots. 

I know, i am way too simple but i know, it's me. This is my passion. I will keep writing, makes music, and i really want to travel the world. 

Biru Tamaela - Gadis Kecil Lirik

Gadis Kecil, one of my favorite song of Biru Tamaela. Here's the lyric.

Gadis Kecil

Biru Tamaela

Di bawah pohon kehidupan 

Dia duduk menatap bergentaran

Tak sangka, masihkah ada 

Yang tak berdilema 

Yang tidurkan indahnya

Lihat hatimu tuk temukan senyumnya

Menunggulah hai tamaela

Gadis kecil jangan kau sembunyi malu

Aku datang untuk meminjam namamu 

Ajari aku cara membirukan jenuh

Hingga aku tak lagi berlari menjauh

Lihat hatimu tuk temukan senyumnya

Menunggulah hai tamaela

Gadis kecil jangan kau sembunyi malu

Aku datang untuk meminjam namamu 

Ajari aku cara membirukan jenuh

Hingga aku tak lagi berlari menjauh

Gadis kecil jangan kau sembunyi malu

Aku datang untuk meminjam namamu 

Ajari aku cara membirukan jenuh

Hingga aku tak lagi berlari menjauh

25

a glass of water, two bars of sandwich biscuit, Isyana's Paradox album tracks playing. today is a great day! tanggal merah menyelamatkan saat tubuh dan mata sudah lelah bekerja. weekend nggak terasa buat istirahat, malah justru berkegiatan. i was so exhausted these past two weeks. i am trying hard to re-manage my life. dari hal kecil aja, sebisa mungkin jangan malas. kadang hidup kalau banyak alasan jadi kayak nggak produktif. beda lagi kalau memang benar-benar butuh istirahat. dan yang kedua jangan bodoh. walau kita ingin lebih produktif dan nggak mau waktu yang ada kebuang, tapi kesehatan itu penting. kadang nggak dipungkiri, kita mulai mengada-ngada tentang sakit supaya bisa ijin kerja, padahal nggak sebanding juga. often times, aku ngerasa sih kerja seharian 9 jam nggak sebanding sama upah hariannya, which is kalau boleh jujur ngga nyampe 150 ribu. memang jauh kalau dibandingkan sama fee nyanyi sehari, istilahnya nyanyi di event tertentu gitu cuma 10 sampai 30 menit misalnya, fee nya udah bisa dapat 3 kali lipat daripada kita kerja. tapi waktu aku check ulang.. bedanya event gitu sama kerja adalah intensitasnya. zaman sekarang, siapa sih yang mau bayar kita segitu selama kontrak misal 6 bulan atau 1 tahun. itu kata-kata yang aku dapat dari tanteku seminggu lalu. aku nggak mau orang lain berpikir bahwa hidup itu selalu baik-baik aja dan melupakan down sidenya. jadi, kadang aku mengeluh. tapi itu salah dan akan jadi yang ketiga jangan mengeluh.

beberapa hari ini aku selalu nulis di note hp, apa aja yang aku pikirin selama nunggu pom bensin buka misalnya. udah lebih setahun aku selalu mengosongkan waktu ngantri ku tanpa memanfaatkanya sama sekali, kadang juga kesel, atau cuma scrolling screen on instagram. jujur, aku lebih menyerap informasi kalau ada tulisan/bacaannya. jadi kebanyakan kalau liat foto di instagram bisa cepat lupa. memfilter informasi di instagram juga penting, jadi, sekarang aku cuma cari yang bener aku butuhin aja atau sekedar tau apa yang lagi happening di sekitaran teman-teman yang jarang banget aku temuin. sometimes i miss them. i wanna see them. OK, let's do that.

i just bought a budget speaker. white color from Shopee. so happy that we don't have to spend much money to get what we wanted. so i try to maximize the minimalist stuff. the function is the same. so, jangan malu untuk pake barang-barang murah. bagiku harga itu relatif, sesuaikan kebutuhan dan kesanggupan aja. karena belajar dari pengalaman, gengsi itu ngga akan ngebeat konsistensi. konsisten itu ada kalau kita bener-bener punya komitmen dan ngerasa nggak rugi ngeluarin duit untuk ini dan itu. balancing this and that, it's so important to me. because i have to pay bills and take the responsibility of my youngest brother and mom too. i was born to be extraordinary girl. that's why my life isn't like normal people out there. i'm 25 and single and wohoo. nobody can stop us. if you have dreams, goals, and anything.. JUST DO IT.