Anxiety of Drinking Coffee, Soda, etc

i have anxiety. i m worry that much about my body, about what i drink. a few months ago i decided to stop drink coffee often. i limit it to only twice a month. i decide it myself.

i used to always said that coffee helps me writing the songs, coffee helps me stop my headache, and etc. i always said that coffee helps me a lot but i also worrying my body and my head after i have a cup of coffee. 

now, i'm working far from home. the office only serve us two brands of coffee and tea. the office is quite far from the city too.. so it's like we don't have much option to drink. i decided to quit soda and sweet drink since 2013. so, for me it's not a big problem when i dont have much option to drink. but, depends on the situation of my working place.. when everybody like drinking coffee every single day, it's like a right way to live, to survive and even it's like a must. i don't want to be like that. i mean.. to decide or doing the bad thing. you know, coffee isn't bad but if you consume it too much.. that's another case.

i stop doing music

i remember my last stage was when i sing at Samarinda with Irine and the other musicians. 

i promised myself that it is my last performance this year.

it's my 9th performance long as i being solo musician. 

i'm healing myself nowadays. 

i think it was my thought only, but i wanna tell that fake people, toxic people are exist

around us.

i've been in anger, i never fail myself, i never disappoint myself

'cause i always know what i'm doing

what's my purpose..

but then i met these people

who is trapped me with their bad words

they make me hate myself 

but then again i think my walls are too weak 

so they can come in easily

they know no boundary 

i mean, if you don't have positive or good words

can you just quiet ?

even cursing, i avoid that

out of it, i don't even care anymore

that's their big problem 

only them who can solve the problem 

people who underestimate someone is people who doubt theirselves a lot

'cause i believe that words are reflecting our own selves

so, i made my debut again after restarting my life 

i perform at Telkom yesterday in the early morning at 8 

and that is my last perform before i move (temporarily) to another city in Kalimantan 

this is my last performance this year

i'm gonna miss me sing on stage :)

the changes

lightnings are still happen outside since the past hour

i just get home after work and having a late dinner with my friends

it's 2:23 a.m when i'm typing on my laptop... finally...

the last day has come (after 15 days)

i miss this, typing on my laptop

listen to the fan's sound, calm..

it is just the perfect me time for me

i still can feel my back hurt

hurt for the wholeeee weekdays-weekend

but it's not a problem since i really want to do physical job

so?

what is the changes?

i think it's very small changes from me

1. i don't have any goals now
2. my life is wayyyyy to simple now (i don't force myself, when i'm tired take a break and learn how to let go of things that doesn't belong to me anymore)
3. talk or not talk to anyone is fine for me, i don't take it seriously anymore, it's so flexible now
4. take any chance, take any chance, even if i am unfit or lack of sleep, i don't wanna miss one chance (music activity or a real working) i might make my music activity as a real job for me someday but idk yet, depends on many factors
5. i'm not process oriented anymore but also the result now
6. emotionally stable now, i mean.. i don't hide my emotional and hoarding it myself. i ask my mom or my bestie to help me at least to just listen to me and give me the most effective solution of it

so, who am i ? 

this is my public journal

everyone can read this

and everyone has their own rights to judge and to see

prove that i love myself since i made this blog

until now, it never disappoint me at all

playlist : Westlife - Westlife Album

"pikiran orang-orang"

pikiran orang-orang terlalu kompleks. ekspektasi dan harapan yang masih mereka miliki melemahkan kesederhanaan pikiran orang-orang biasa. berbondong-bondong agat terlihat baik dan terbaik. padahal luka dimana mana. jika ia mengetahui satu hal baru lebih cepat daripada orang lain, bagiku tidak cukup untuk menganggap diri terbaik.

pikiran orang-orang terlalu tinggi, aku bukan lawan yang tepat dengan pikiran sederhana.

pikiran orang-orang bahwa aku terlalu sulit dimengerti, itu adalah cerminan kata yang menggambarkan bagaimana mereka berusaha memahami diri mereka sendiri.

pikiran orang-orang sangat terbatas tapi terlampau jauh. mungkin mereka lupa apa yang menjadikan manusia mulia. bukan dengan saling menjatuhkan, melemahkan, dan perlahan mematikan yang lainnya.

jika ingin menjadi yang terbaik
jika ingin menjadi yang terpandai
jika ingin menjadi terkenal

tidak perlu untuk meremehkan orang lain yang pikirannya lebih sederhana

hai orang-orang pintar..
pengetahuan dan kemampuan orang itu tidak diukur dari perkataannya
tapi kau mudah sekali ditebak dari perkataanmu sendiri

i don't know how

aku mulai sakit kepala berbicara dengan orang-orang ini

panggil aku pecundang
lari dari kenyataan
pulang sebelum menang
bersembunyi dan menulis
terima kasih

yang hidup akan mati
hidup sendiri sudah melelahkan
apalagi bertemu dengan orang-orang seperti kalian
yang tidak pernah puas dengan keadaan orang lain

apakah aku
atau temanku yang sakit pikirannya ?

atau kalian yang tidak ingin menyadari semuanya ?

Tips Datang ke Big Bad Wolf Balikpapan 2019

Tahun ini Balikpapan kebagian giliran event pameran buku besar nih. Big bad wolf (BBW) di Balikpapan baru dihadirkan tahun ini, 2019. Kebetulan aku adalah salah satu kru BBW di Balikpapan. Mau share sedikit tips datang ke BBW karena hari ini udah di buka Preview Day-nya. Jadi, kalian bisa datang sehari lebih cepat daripada sales day nya sendiri, hari ini buka dari jam 8 pagi sampai jam 12 malem. (Bagi yang sudah punya Preview Day Pass). 

Keuntungan datang di Preview Day ini adalah (kemungkinan) pengunjung dan antrian kasirnya tidak akan terlalu ramai. Untuk sale day nya, dari tanggal 1-10 November 2019, bisa masuk secara gratis dari jam 8 pagi sampai jam 12 malam. Oh iya, lokasinya di BSCC Dome ya. Karna ini adalah kali pertama BBW di Balikpapan dan diadakan di area yang cukup luas yaitu di Dome. Aku mau share tips untuk datang ke BBW. Semoga membantu ya.

Tips :

1. Datang lebih pagi/cepat (untuk menghindari antrian panjang)
2. Gunakan pakaian yang nyaman 
3. Pakai alas kaki/sepatu/sandal yang nyaman untuk jalan kaki lama (karena kalo mau muterin all section bisa sampe berjam-jam)
4. Bawa minum dan bekal sendiri (supaya nggak dehidrasi dan kelaparan)
5. Bawa tas atau koper sendiri karena disana tidak disediakan plastik
6. Membantu menjaga kebersihan hall section 

Selain itu, tetap waspada, jaga keamanan masing-masing yha. See you there! 

Kalau mau follow akun instagram BBW bisa klik Official Big Bad Wolf ID 

Joji, Jackson Wang - Walking (ft. Swae Lee, Major Lazer) CHORD

Intro :
Chorus (Swae Lee) :
Verse (Joji) :
Bridge (Swae Lee) :
Verse 2 (Jackson) :
Chorus (Swae Lee) :

Intro
Woah, oh
Woah, oh
Woah, oh
Yeah

Chorus
What it's gon' take? (Take)
What it's gon' take to make you shake your worries away (Shake)
I'm finally seeing you face to face  (Face, hey)
It's your beauty girl, plus your frame (Ooh, ooh)

Verse
You got what I want, I see you walking away
This feels too real, I hope we could be the same
Some could fuck with you, won't get nowhere
I just want to relive this over
I need you to know, I need you to know
And my body will never let go
So bright, baby, never turn the lights on
I'll be there to catch you if you fall
We'll be better, oh (Yeah)

Chorus
What it's gon' take? (Take)
What it's gon' take to make you shake your worries away (Shake)
I'm finally seeing you face to face (Face, hey)
It's your beauty girl, plus your frame (Ooh, ooh)

Bridge
And I can't wait (Wait)
She a lil' teeny Kimi 'cause she love to sunbathe (Bathe)
Usually I don't even trip but I can't see you walking away (Way)
She don't even know how I do all this in one day (Ooh)

Verse 2
I got the moves, yeah
You got the juice, yeah
We can get loose and go wild-wild-wild
Play you for keeps, yeah
Don't want to waste time
My pain with me, take a ride-ride-ride
Swerving in Phantoms, oh yeah (Oh yeah)
She say I look handsome, oh yeah (Oh, oh yeah)
Jump on the jet, we can talk when we land
Baby, now I got her in the palm of my hand
So give me all ties
Baby, you live life
Do this in your time
Baby, I don't mind
Do this like a young Skywalker (Walker)
Baby, you're a real smooth talker, just

Chorus
What it's gon' take? (Take)
What it's gon' take to make you shake your worries away (Shake)
I'm finally seeing you face to face (Face, hey)
It's your beauty girl, plus your frame (Ooh, ooh)

Karsha - 0/10 Lyric

now here's the castle of our dream
the forest that we had never ever seen
it's locking us in this scene
scene that has never been told
or even to be found from the people before
now i know that i am lost

facing the woods they are looking
and hunting me down, so i keep on running
leaving myself out from this
this place that fills with the brad treat
although it all unreal
but i am drown in it
still i know that i am lost

hopes are vanishing from here (losing my fight)
my lungs are crawling out from me (into the light)
hopes are vanishing from here (losing my fight)
my lungs are crawling out from me (into the light)

hopes are vanishing from here (losing my fight)
my lungs are crawling out from me (into the light)
hopes are vanishing from here (losing my fight)
my lungs are crawling out from me (into the light)

source : Karsha Youtube

Minimalism, A Small List

It's been 15 months since we move to the new rent house near my office (not anymore) and i believe it's been almost a year me decluttering my stuff. My clothes, little stuff like gifts, broken toy, etc. I also bought my dream stuff (honestly, it was my bestie bought me a rack from IKEA). It isn't that expensive one, idk why so hard to have it. 

I never said that i'm a minimalist, but as i remember i used to mention in my social media profile such as Facebook, Twitter that i always love simple. In fact, since i live separate from my mom, it's like the right time to make my dreams come true (to declutter stuff). I think my mom is maximalist, she love unique and antique also cute stuff.

I used make a list (since 2014) and i stop it in this year 'cause i know that i have enough list. I just have to buy and tick one by one. Now, i want to share all i have done to my room, just a small list but i'm happy with it :

1. Have an IKEA mulig rack (done) - after 5 years sitting on my list
2. Paint my small table white (done)
3. Paint my room all white (on process) - including window's and door's frame
4. Decluttering clothes (50% done)
5. Have a storage box (done) - i bought this from Hypermart and brought it to my house by bike with my bestie
6. Fixing my curtain rod
7. Only own what i need

Next time, i will share the progress picture of my room. 

Tyas Alfisa - Put Your Records On (Cover)

Kenangan Manis - Pamungkas Chord

Intro :
E A E A

[Verse 1]
C#m                                             A
Tawa yang terlepas tanpa ada makna
C#m                                             A
Cerita lama yang selalu dibawa
A
Diam-diam hati ini mengerti
F#m
Teringat dan jadi ciri
E                                    F#m
Tentangmu, tentangmu...

[Chorus]
E                      B                         F#m
Tuk sementara sampai berjumpa
E                      B                         F#m
Bersama-sama bercanda lagiE                      B                         F#m
Kenangan manis di hari ini
E                      B                         F#m
Jadi alasan untuk kembali

[Verse 2]
C#m                                             A
Semua mimpi tinggi dan segala dramaC#m                                             A
Dijadikan canda dikeluh bersama
A
Terkadang-kadang mata bicara
A
Seakan-akan semua rahasia
E
Oh kebodohan antara kita
                               F#m
Jadi kenangan manis

[Chorus]
E                      B                         F#m
Tuk sementara sampai berjumpa
E                      B                         F#m
Bersama-sama bercanda lagiE                      B                         F#m
Kenangan manis di hari ini
E                      B                         F#m
Jadi alasan untuk kembali


E                      B                         F#m
Tuk sementara sampai berjumpa
E                      B                         F#m
Bersama-sama bercanda lagiE                      B                         F#m
Kenangan manis di hari ini
E                      B                         F#m
Jadi alasan untuk kembali
C#m                 B                     F#m
Kenangan manis sehari ini
C#m                 B                     F#m
Jadi alasan untuk kembali
E                      B                         F#m
Jadi alasan untuk kembali

E A E A

(poem to my mom) puisi untuk mamah

i never love someone like i love my dad, my mom, and myself.
but, i always try to love someone else with my own heart, pure, deep, the best as i can do.
like trying to write the romantic lines, poems, or songs.
i don't know, but i never really did it.

i think it's selfish when you said you love someone more than you love yourself.
it's nonsense and it's stupid.
what else, you still have your parents in this world.
for me, love for parent is the most important but i don't know about you guys.

these 4 years are not easy to me, i believe for mom and my brothers too.
i'm 25 years 7 month old now and i still feel like "i still need my father".
"it's nice if you're here dad. with us".

"everything's gonna be okay, if you're still here".

i don't know if it's stupid or not but it's not gonna be easy to accept the reality.
i'm not that young but not that old yet.

but i keep growing up, grow old even without my dad, i know he wants me
to keep alive. his treatment to me, makes me who i am today.
close people said i'm an independent girl.

i can say i'm ready for any situations in my life.
i am the best version of myself now and it's because of my dad and my mom.

tomorrow, my mom's going to turn 48.
i remember last year i gave her ~$35 perfume.
this year, i promise that i will save my money for her wishes.
but i can't pass it just like that.
that's why i make this. a poem.

POEM TO MY MOM 

mom, thank you 

to choose me as your daughter

to take care of me

25 years are not the short time

thank you to be the good mother of us

mom, thank you

to let me to chase my dreams

as i wanted

i want to travel the world 

and you let me to do it this time

i want you to know

that i will always come back home to you

cause you are a home to me

wherever i am

to knowing you're good and happy

is enough for me

mom, 

don't get too stress

take it all easy

it's the time for me to take care of you

and all of my responsibilities 

as your daughter

tell me anything

tell me your wishes

i wish you all the best

love, ica.

Don't Call Me Angel Chord

Am                                           
Boy, don't call me angel, you ain’t got me right
                Am                       
Don't call me angel, you can't pay my price
                 G                      F
Ain’t from no heaven, yeah you heard me right (yeah, you heard me)
                        D 
Even though you know we fly (though you know we), don't call me angel


Am                                    
Uh, don't call me angel when I'm a mess
                                 Am 
Don't call me angel when I get undressed
         Am         N.C.                                        
You know I, I don't like that, boy
Am                                            
Uh, I make my money and I write the checks
                               Am
So say my name with a little respect
                    Am
All my girls successful, and you're just our guest


Am
   Do I really need to say it?
G                     
  Do I need to say it again, yeah?
F
  You better stop the sweet talk
    G             
And keep your pretty mouth shut


Am                                           
Boy, don't call me angel, you ain’t got me right
                Am                       
Don't call me angel, you can't pay my price
                 G                      F
Ain’t from no heaven, yeah you heard me right (yeah, you heard me)
                        D 
Even though you know we fly (though you know we), don't call me angel


Am                                                
   See you here with somebody, you sizin' up my body, oh yeah
Am                       N.C.                   
   Don't you know that I bite when the sun set, yeah
                       Am
So don’t you try come around me
                        Am      
Might work with her but not me, oh yeah
Am
   Don't you know that I bite when the sun set?

Am                       G
   Keep my name out your mouth
                 F   
I know what you about
                         D 
So keep my name out your mouth, oh yeah

Am                                           
Boy, don't call me angel, you ain’t got me right
                Am                       
Don't call me angel, you can't pay my price
                 G                      F
Ain’t from no heaven, yeah you heard me right (yeah, you heard me)
                        D 
Even though you know we fly (though you know we), don't call me angel

F
I appreciate the way you watch me, I can't lie
          G
I drop it down, I pick it up, I back it off the county line
            E 
I fell from heaven, now I'm living like a devil
                          F
You can't get me off your mind

D        
I appreciate the way you want me, I can't lie
          G
I drop it low, I back it up, I know you wanna think you're mine
      E 
Baby, I totally get it, you can't guess so
                          F
You can't get me off your mind (we in it together, but don't call me angel)

Am                                           
Boy, don't call me angel, you ain’t got me right
                Am                       
Don't call me angel, you can't pay my price
                 G                      F
Ain’t from no heaven, yeah you heard me right (yeah, you heard me)
                        D 
Even though you know we fly (though you know we), don't call me angel

Am                          
   (Yeah, you heard me) Angel, don't call me angel 
Am                                          
   (Yeah, you heard me)    Don't call me angel

볼빨간사춘기 (BOL4) – 워커홀릭 (Workaholic) Chord

볼빨간사춘기 (BOL4) – 워커홀릭 (Workaholic) Easy Chord

Intro :

C B   Em

C B   Em

C                                  B

meoril jilkkeun mukkgo 

Em

angyeongeul beoseodeonjyeo

 C                                          B                     Em

nan jigeum hwaga nasseum jjajeungi nasseum

C                             B

dapjangeul haejugo sipdagado

Em

ssoadaeneun maltudeuri

C                                    B          Em

jeonhyeo sarangseureopji anha

C                              B                           Em                  

siwonhan maekjureul han kaen masida yeah

C                              B                           Em

mundeuk seuchyeo jinaganeun eojeui gieok

C                              B                           Em

jigeum saenggakhae bonikka naega wae

C                                                 B       Em

ttaeryeochiwosseoya haessneunde

C                              B             Em

modu soneul deureo Beer Cheers u

                          C                              B            Em

aswipji anheun cheongchundapge Face it

C                              B          Em

useumbakke naoji anhneun modeun sanghwange

Am                            B    Em

nun tteoboni beolsseo achimi wasseum

C  B      Em

uuuuuuuuuu

C  B      Em

uuuuuuuuuu

C                             B                        Em

Everyday working ireodaga jukgessne

C                          B

But I love this right

Em

igeon naege majji

C                              B

baragiman haessdeon Up all night

Em

meori apeun ildeulman gadeukhae

C                     B                        Em

nan jigeum gwabuhaga wasseum

C                              B                           Em                  

siwonhan maekjureul han kaen masida yeah

C                              B                           Em
mundeuk seuchyeo jinaganeun eojeui gieok

C                              B                           Em
jigeum saenggakhae bonikka naega wae

C                              B                           Em
ttaeryeochiwosseoya haessneunde

C                              B             Em

modu soneul deureo Beer Cheers u

                            C                              B            Em
aswipji anheun cheongchundapge Face it

C                              B          Em
useumbakke naoji anhneun modeun sanghwange

Am                            B                        Em
nun tteoboni beolsseo achimi wasseum

C                   B                 Em

jigyeopdorok gateun ilsang soge

Am            B               Em

oneulman saragago sipeojyeo

C            B                          Em

geopmeokji ma Just face

                               Am    B

what you are doing yeah

Em

sigani eopseum

C                              B             Em

modu soril jilleo Feel this yeah

                               C                    B         Em

duryeopji anheun cheongchundapge Face it

C                          B                  Em

useumjocha naoji anhneun modeun sanghwange

Am                B            Em

nun tteoboni beolsseo

C B Em

C B Em

C B Em

Am B Em

C B Em

B Em

C B Em

Am B Em

C B Em

C                        B                           Em

modu soneul deureo Beer Cheers u

                          C                            B        Em

aswipji anheun cheongchundapge Face it

C                             B                                              Em

useumbakke naoji anhneun modeun sanghwange

Am                           B   Em

nun tteoboni beolsseo achimi wasseum

uuuuuuuuuu

uuuuuuuuuu

achimi wasseum

which path ? // my 2014's confusion

hey,

(honestly, i'm not sure who i am talk to everytime i said "hey" in my blog)

but hey, 

for you who is struggling with your life..

for you who is trapped with something like job, your own passion, your love life..

stay sane..

don't give up.

2014 is my biggest year because music choose me. i didn't like to work for a company in my 20's but 5 years have passed, it seems i'm already out of my deadline. i'm no longer making any lists, bucket list, wishlist. it's not that i don't motivated by something but, i know i have to do or make something better, not only dreaming. so by the time, i've changed. 

there's a point in ourselves that we can't change but we always got a life lessons so it's impossible for us to stay the same the whole years. example : i STILL like a simple style, but people don't think my mind is simple now. because we are keep growing, keep learning, keep falling. and i can feel that it's like going back to 2014. where i was confuse with my life. which life's path that i should walk on.

i think my high school's life is my latest comfort zone. it's not that i wasn't grateful for what i achieved. but look at everybody else, i'm so different. i lost my dad when i was 21 years old and it was in my birthday. it's not easy but i know my lil brother suffering much than me. he was still in elementary that year. i always comparing my life with others, that's my bad side. but i always make it as a reference to stay alive. that, the earth is keep rotating. don't worry, we aren't always at the bottom of our lives. someday we will know how it feels to be on top. 

by the way "see you on top", Mr. Headbox said to me. 

i know.. 

i gotta try and be consistent

i've come so far like this

i just can't give up 

you know,

writing is the best treatment for me

so i will keep writing to you 

anyone, thanks for supporting me 

'til today

i have a silly and arrogant wishlist,

here

updated list :

i want to be rich and help poor people.

Nyanyi di Mini Gignya Irine Sugiarto

yasss! ini kedua kalinya main di gig Irine Sugiarto. kali ini judulnya Tiba-Tiba Ready, Set, Nyanyi. sesuai sama judulnya itu, kita emang tiba-tiba aja gitu. aku awalnya iseng dm yuk kapan ketemu lagi. kebetulan dia emang pas lagi pulang ke Balikpapan terus mau bikin mini gig dan diajak ngejam gitu. asyik! kali ini, panggungnya enak banget, santai yang santai banget dah. nggak perlu ini itu, apa adanya dan mereka, kru, penonton yang kebanyakan musisi lokal juga, suportif banget. kerasa banget hangat suasananya. dan yang motoin juga banyak, bagus-bagus juga. ada wawan, kak paksi, sama wicky-super chooper. ini ada beberapa foto dari mereka, thanks berat!

buat Irine, makasih banyak dan pengisi lainnya (emi, kak ezra), semoga sukses! see you on the next gigs~

 

photo by:

@paksisandang

@electroduceboy_

@wancukz

Project With Aliefnoufals

hey, just want to tell a lil story/experience i did last year. i had a project with Alief, i'm featured in his album in a song called 'Silvia'. if you guys want to listen to it, please hit the link below :

and Alief's friend made the video lyric, it's awesome, check it out here :

Punch - Done For Me (Chord)

Capo 4

Em C Am B7

Em     C                                     G                  D/F#
Jiulge neoege namgyeojwotdeon chueokkkajido
Em     C                                     G               B7/F#
Baralge neowaui gieokdo namji mothage
C                                                    G                 
Deoneun dagagal su eopseo nege
Am                                         Em
Ireon maeumi neomu duryeowo
C                                             G
Neoui gieok modu gajyeoga jwo
Am               B7
Da jiwojwo
                        Em
Done for me

Em/D  Am  B7

Em
Kkaekkeusi jiwojil su isseulkka
Bm/D
Neol beoseonal su isseulkka
C                                             Bm                   
Saranghaetdeon gieokdo da biwonael su isseulkka
Am
Deo irwojil suneun eopseo
G
Nan dagagal su eopseo
F#m
Michin deusi ttwieoga
B7
Neo eomneun gose ga
Em
Sarangeun gatgo namgyeojin chueokdeureun apatgo
C                                                 Bm
Nega naege namgyeojwotdeon gieogeun gasiga dwaetgo
Am
Da sarajyeosseumyeon hae
G
Modu jiwojyeosseumyeon hae
F#m
Na swil su itge neol

Em                 C                     G                                D/F#
Tteonalge gajil su eomneun neoran geol algo isseo
  Em                   C                   G                       B7/F#
Bonaelge neowaui gieok modu da beorilge
C                                                    G                 
Deoneun dagagal su eopseo nege
Am                                         Em
Ireon maeumi neomu duryeowo
C                                             G
Neoui gieok modu gajyeoga jwo
Am               B7
Da jiwojwo
                        Em
Done for me

Em/D  Am  B7

Em             Bm/D
Naui gieogeseo tteonagajwo
C                                       Bm
Neoui chueokdeuldo gajyeoga jwo
Am            G                     
Jiwojwo neoui geuriumkkajido
Em                    Em/D
Geuriwodo geuripjineun anke
C                                      Bm                     Am
Modeun sungandeureul ijeobolge da ijeulge
G                                 B7/F#
Neoui jageun heunjeokkkajido

Em     C                                     G                  D/F#
Jiulge neoege namgyeojwotdeon chueokkkajido
Em     C                                     G               B7/F#
Baralge neowaui gieokdo namji mothage
C                                                    G                 
Deoneun dagagal su eopseo nege
Am                                         Em
Ireon maeumi neomu duryeowo
C                                             G
Neoui gieok modu gajyeoga jwo
Am               B7
Da jiwojwo
                        Em
Done for me
C G B7
Em C G B7

C                             
Neoreul tteonal subakke
G
Meoreojil subakke eopseunikka
Am                                                Em
Ireon nareul jebal yongseohaejwo
C                                  G        Am      B7/F#
Eonjenganeun uri dasi mannal su itgireul
Em/D  Am  B7
Done for me
Em/D  Am  B7
Done for me
Em/D  Am  B7

Paul Kim - So Long Chord

[Intro]

C G Am Gm C  F Fm F

[Verse 1]

C                F
annyeong iraneun mareulhae
G                 Em           Am 
jjalpeun siganeul dwiro hanchaero
Dm                   G 
yeojeonhi apeugessjiman
       C           F         Bm            E 
harusbam jago namyeon sarajineun kkumcheoreom
    Am     Dm          G          C
neoreul oh ijgedoelkka duryeowojyeo
        F    B                Em
musimhi neol tteoollige doemyeon
Am             Dm                   G
buranhaejineun mam eotteohge haeyahani

[Chorus]

C                G
annyeong ijeneun annyeong
Am            Fm            C
i mal dojeohi hal suga eopseo
      G                  F
neoro gadeukchan nae maeum
          C        G
gyeou naega hal su issneun il
        Fm               Dm
neoreul saranghaneun geo
     G                   C
dasi neol mannal su issgil

[Instrumental]

C G Am G F C G

[Verse 2]

C               F           E
aju orae jeonbuteo jeonghaejin yeoniljido
      Am  G  D  Dm             G          C
neobakke moreul naega doeeossdeon geuttaega
           F F#m               Em
duryeowojyeo neol ango isseumyeon
Am          Dm                       G
jakku yoksimina eojjeol su eopsneungeol

[Chorus]

C                G
annyeong ijeneun annyeong
Am            Fm            C
i mal dojeohi hal suga eopseo
      G                  F
neoro gadeukchan nae maeum
          C        G
gyeou naega hal su issneun il
Am      Fm               Dm 
neoreul saranghaneun geo
     G                   C
dasi neol mannal su issgil

[Bridge]

F         C    F      A
gutge dathin jeo muni yeollimyeon
A#                                  G
geuttaeneun neol dasi bol su isseulkka

[Outro Chorus]

C                G
jamsi seuchideut manna
Am                   Fm         C
unmyeongcheoreom nal kkot piuge hae
           G              F
maeil neol kkumkkugessjiman
G           C              G
gadeuk chaeul geuriummankeum
      Fm            Dm 
baraneun geon dan hana
           G             C
gyesok nae gyeote isseojwo

my activities these days...

inspirasi

aku nggak mau bahas hal atau berita yang nggak aku kuasai atau baca secara mendalam, contohnya : pindahnya ibukota ke Kaltim atau ricuh di Manokwari beberapa waktu lalu. melainkan, update tentang diri sendiri. Berapa minggu lalu aku sempat ngeklik akun instagramnya Sal Priadi, ada yang tau atau suka ? Yang jelas, temenku Silvya suka banget sama Sal dan pas dia sering pasang story Sal, aku iseng klik dan nemu 1 postingan Sal yang isinya lagi ngobrol sama beberapa penulis. Yang isi captionnya begini :

"Beberapa waktu lalu, berbincang dengan cinta kami semua pak @damonosapardi , mba @fentyeffendy21 dan @ntsana, tentang banyak hal. juga ungkapan tsana di sini rasanya juga mewakili aku. "Males cerita ama orang, kalau nulis rasanya menyembuhkan", lalu aku minta toss.

ada juga aku membaca puisi bapak, ditemani si keren @rdtjk yang cepat tanggap meski persiapannya hanya satu hari.

jelasnya bisa disaksikan di youtube @narasi.tv"

postingan Sal yang menginspirasi bisa kalian liat disini : https://www.instagram.com/p/BylAn70HIia/

sebenarnya ini berkaitan banget sama aktivitas nulis di blogku. nulis itu nggak gampang, apalagi dengan postingan sebanyak ini. nggak mungkin aku ngerjainnya dalam semalam. butuh proses dan butuh pengorbanan. pengorbanan waktu adalah yang paling besar disini. karna bisa aja mood nulisnya muncul pas di waktu-waktu kurang tepat kayak lagi di tengah jalan, lagi ngendarain motor, atau pas lagi nonton suatu konser, di kafe, di pasar, di kamar mandi, dll. semuanya tentang proses. dan aku setuju banget kalau mba nya bilang nulis itu menyembuhkan. saat kita nggak punya teman bercerita yang tepat, rasanya nulis selalu berhasil. nulis itu adalah bercerita kepada diri sendiri. nggak ada perlawanan yang melenceng ataupun anggukan, bercerita ke diri sendiri adalah obat paling sederhana. nggak perlu pertentangan apapun dan tidak melelahkan.

manggung

hari Sabtu tanggal 24 lalu aku mengisi acara IT di Telkom Balikpapan. itu pertama kalinya aku sebagai solois nyanyi di acara indoor di siang hari. cukup pede karna udah punya gitar baru yang aku pikir pas untuk dibawa ke acara manapun dan kondisi apapun. Fyi, aku baru aja bulan lalu beli gitar akustik elektrik (lagi) yaitu Yamaha APXT2 Nat, gitar ini gitar impian waktu dulu 2014 sempat nyari keliling Balikpapan tapi nggak nemu. Ajaib sih dalam berapa tahun, harganya tetap, nggak turun. sedangkan UMK naik, jadi kemampuan untuk membeli bertambah besar, tapi sayang aku belinya pas udah berenti kerja. 

di kesempatan itu, mas Ibnu, foundernya Soundfren. Soundfren itu aplikasi keren untuk musisi professional untuk bertemu dengan event, bertemu musisi, bertemu creator, dll. Mas Ibnu ngasih masukan supaya lebih interaktif dengan penonton dan siapapun yang hadir. Ini PR berat buat para introvert ya? karna aku ngerasa ditembak langsung wkwk. berat banget, apalagi aku yang aslinya pendiam dan lebih suka nulis ini. tapi itulah tantangan nya musisi baru. walaupun nggak baru2 amat sih. cuma yaa.. yaudahlah, emang berguna banget ya kalo kita punya ekspektasi rendah, i mean, nggak usah berharap di puji dulu. yang penting tiap penampilan aku berusaha untuk maksimal. nggak mungkin nggak ada cacat/kurang tapi aku suka prosesnya. sama kayak menulis, menyanyi, ataupun tampil di publik itu nggak mudah, nggak sulit. 

hmm, terus apalagi yaa...

oh iya! jadi kegiatan tiap minggu, aku ada latihan bareng Yogie dan Azi untuk project soloku. semoga bisa cepat masuk studio ya buat rekam semua lagu, totalnya ada 5 lagu. sebenarnya sering aku bawain pas manggung, cuma masih belum tertata dan mau di aransemen ulang lagi. semoga nanti kalian suka!

ini foto pas di acara IT kemaren. namanya DILo Hackathon Festival 2019.

my sixteenth guitar

di acara waktu itu pertama kali aku pake gitar baruku. gitar yang sebenernya dulu sempat aku pengenin banget di 2014. jadi, 2014 kayak titik balik pertama ku, "i want to, i had to do this!" kalau waktu itu gitar ini ada dijual di Balikpapan, pasti udah jadi gitar ku yang ke-6. dulu, aku juga sempat pinjam gitar temen untuk English Camp. gitarnya masih aku pinjem sampai setelah camp, mungkin sehabis itu aku jadi kepengen punya gitar lagi, jadinya aku beli yamaha kw di toko sport, cuma 200 ribuan terus aku jual lagi 200. nggak rugi :D

jadi, gitar ke 16 ku dan sepertinya jadi gitar satu-satunya yang ku punya akhir tahun ini, Yamaha APXT2 Natural. aku lepas Cort Earth 50 di Agustus dan (modified) Squier Telecaster Affinity di September. such a sad moment but the great thing is when you can maximize the minimal thing.